March 31, 2003

The rocks on her fingers
shot lasers through others
moving in tandem
with the sun and her hands.

March 30, 2003

Death came softly that night
and spoke to me in its honey voice
of a thousand silent wind chimes

"I will give you peace
without a struggle,
Sleep without trouble,
In my arms you can lie,
Loved for eternity"

I awoke...

Call me all the names in the book...
All the adjectives from the deepest recesses of your mind...
One thing I refuse to be
is a Door mat.

March 29, 2003

Everybody's been in my face
tellin' me I gotta make a change
all I ever hear day and night is "you better hurry up and get
a life"
I need some direction - 'cause the clock is ticking away
then a friend of a friend of mine
says I've really been on his mind
find wants to go out and check out what the feelin's about
says we have a deep connection - well it sure is news to me
and all can I say is
intuition tells me how to live my day
intuition tells me when to walk away
could have turned left
could haven turned right
but I ended up here
bang in the middle of real life


Natalie Imbruglia - Intuition (could have been me....)

March 28, 2003

Life has become one clinical affair....

He had it coming
He had it coming
He only had himself to blame
If you'd have been there
If you'd have seen it
I betcha you would have done the same!
Pop, Six, Squish, Uh uh, Cicero, Lipschitz!


You know how people
have these little habits
That get you down. Like Bernie.
Bernie like to chew gum.
No, not chew. POP.
Well, I came home this one day
And I am really irritated, and
looking for a little sympathy
and there'e Bernie layin'
on the couch, drinkin' a beer
and chewin'. No, not chewin'.
Poppin'. So, I said to him,
I said, "Bernie, you pop that
gum one more time..."
and he did.
So I took the shotgun off the wall
and I fired two warning shots...
...into his head.


Chorus -He had it coming....

I met Ezekiel Young from
Salt Lake city about two years ago
and he told me he was single
and we hit it off right away.
So, we started living together.
He'd go to work, he'd come home, I'd
mix him a drink, We'd have dinner.
Well, it was like heaven in
two and a half rooms.
And then I found out,
"Single" he told me?
Single, my ass. Not only
was he married
...oh, no, he had six wives.
One of those Morons, you know. So that
night, when he came home, I mixed him
his drink as usual.
You know, some guys just can't hold
their arsenic.


Chorus -He had it coming....

Now, I'm standing in the kitchen
carvin' up the chicken for dinner,
minding my own business,
and in storms my husband Wilbur,
in a jealous rage.
"You been screwin' the milkman,"
he says. He was crazy
and he kept screamin',
"you been screwin the milkman."
And then he ran into my knife.
He ran into my knife ten times!


What I am doing here? They say,
that the famous lakem kept down my husband
and I stoke off his head. But this is not true,
I am guiltless. I dont know why Uncle Sam says that I did it.
I tried to explain at the police station
but they didn't understand me...
Yeah, but did you do it?
UH UH, not guilty!


My sister, Veronica and
I did this double act
and my husband, Charlie,
used to travel round with us.
Now, for the last number in
our act, we did these 20 acrobatic
four,five...splits, spread eagles,
back flips,flip flops,
one right after the other.
Well, this one night we were in Cicero,
the three of us, sittin' up
in a hotel room, boozin' and
havin' a few laughs and
we ran out of ice.
So I went out to get some.
I come back, open the door
and there's Veronica and
Charlie doing Number Seventeen-
the spread eagle.
Well, I was in such a state of shock,
I completely blacked out.I can't remember a thing.
It wasn't until later,
when I was washing the blood off my hands
I even knew they were dead.


They had it coming
They had it coming
They had it coming all along
I didn't do it
But if I'd done it
How could you tell me that I was wrong?
All along
'Cause if they used us
'Cause if they used us And they abused us
And they abused us
How could you tell us

How could you tell us That we were wrong?
That we were wrong?


He Had it Coming alright! The Oscars I mean...
While CHICAGO is making all kinds of news, I don't know how many will agree that this song really is the movie!
Words forming strange sentences on the pieces of papers lying forgotten on my table which is dusty from neglect screaming its usefulness to ears closed to the world of materialistic things...

March 27, 2003

1. Strange faces...
Expressing
ANGER, DISGUST, BOREDOM, ANGUISH, CONTEMPT, SADNESS, HELPLESSNESS...
i smile
at the million stories told
amused
they have never been heard

2. The world of Mumbai locals...
i. Would the Mumbai small/home industries survive without such a marketplace?
ii. Would Mumbai expand at such an alarming pace?
iii. Would the molestation rates fall drastically without its grace?


3. A city of strong emotions...
You Love it, Hate it,
Hate to Love it (but do!)
and Love to Hate it.
Neutral- You just can't be!


The plane swooped down like a sea gull circling its domain.
Little-coloured diwali lights strung like tales welcomed me.

The city has always been a temptress-
"And all that's best of dark and bright,
Meet in her aspect and her eyes".

Shes alive and hard to get.
But in the end, she's home...




His Nokia was his teddy bear!


March 26, 2003

The cabbie asked me-

Has the temperature been soaring in the city because of the war?

Bad things happen to good people all the time...

My friend

I know

You will survive.

The innocence of childhood,
The swing, the porch, the trees,
I was everything that made the sunshine brighter.

Age dimmed
The lonely corner
With a novel in hand
And thoughts traveling the span of space and time
I am in love with the moon.

Darkness I wear around me
My vices I treasure within
My angst has become my passion
I dare not be another
I could not be me.

March 25, 2003

Grief fills the room up of my absent child,
Lies in his bed, walks up and down with me,
Puts on his pretty looks, repeats his words,
Remembers me of all his gracious parts,
Stuffs out his vacant garments with his form.
Then have I reason to be fond of grief.


Constance's lines - King John- Shakespeare

March 24, 2003

You call me when you get lonely
I want you to be my reason of never being lonely
Even when you are away....
Shhhhhh......

March 21, 2003

I fight my demons everyday
Trying to kill them without hurting myself

When the days have no laughter
Smiles just fade
Tears refuse to fall
The mood just stays

Come as the spirit
The soothing calm
And croon the soul to peace
Just make it last


March 20, 2003

If you have to build those walls around you,
show me a door...
The greatest teachers are those who never cease to learn...

I learnt from him as he did from me...
The importance of being yourself,
The only way to be truly free.

The free spirit is living..
while I exist mangled by chains
of other things.

March 17, 2003

Is patience really a virtue???
Good excuse for people who have nothing better to do than wait...but what's more amazing is how well we've been trained to take bullshit and even be glad for it!
All I need today...
a. A security blanket
B. Peace of mind
Come to think of it..if I had one..would I need the other???

March 15, 2003

The little white lies can often save the day....
Sometimes...
You even start believing them yourself...
Dependence...is such a temporary thing for an escapist...you can't afford the privilege!

March 14, 2003

CONFUSED...isn't everyone???
I despise the man...
Incompetence does not make me laugh anymore,
Just so sad!

March 13, 2003

I need to oil the rusty joints,
Life is creaking...

March 10, 2003

I am back...to the place I had called home for years. There have been so many changes...little changes...the kinds that nag you the most.
Sometimes you wonder why you ever left...would it have been any different if you didn't???
There is still solace in the faint familiarity...
the remains of burnt photo albums,
the faces without the glow,
my smile which just fails to be,
I cannot stay.

March 08, 2003

At the start of each journey, I wonder- Will I reach my destination? Or will even the journey be worth the destination? Wandering still...wondering!